Tattoo

Well here it goes, gonna take it piece by piece at first and then will weave it all together.

The cloud: The cloud itself like a lot of the piece has dual meaning. The cloud for me is a representation of fear. It is the all consuming gray cloud of fear that chokes out the world. But it is also a representation of me, take that to mean what you will.

The eye: This is the most difficult part to explain. The pyramid looking thing is a dragon's eye. It is a celtic symbol of power. It is also an expression of the world. The eye is both the way that I see fear as a living breathing entity and is me being able to look through fear to conquer it and to push through it. It is a symbol of my power over my internal world. A few years ago I don't think I had earned that eye but at this point I think it is more than earned.

The rain drops: The rain is about tears and sadness. It's also about washing life clean. I always see rain as the world trying to clean all the dirt off. Rain is comfot and energy for me. I love the smell and that feeling. And yet I've cried so many tears over the years it is only right that my cloud shed a few as well. The other part is there are 9. 9 being a perfect number. That is it is 3 three times. It's prefect because of 3 being representation of the divine, of the universal power.

The lightning: It's anger. So often anger has been a part of my life. So often has it shot out of me in a spark. It's been a force of so much destruction but also so much creation in life for me. I don't know that it sparks out as often as it used to but I can feel it rumbleing under the surface at times so I wanted to keep it there as a reminder that I can be that.

The image as a whole is everything. It is me and my life, it is how I see the world or at the very least the lens through which I see the world. I know that I am not doing justice to all that the image means and is but... that's the point. I can't explain it well enough. I don't even have the words for it for all my love of language. In the end I look at the image and I know that is My Cloud. I know it is mine, I know it is me and I don't have the words to express the meaning of it and I think that is why it was worth getting inked into my body forever.... because it is me in the most expressive and unexplanitory way.